Feel Guilty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Sigh~

Yesterday is the day that we hang out in JJ with py n babe.We watched 2 movies,that is "Knight & Day" & "Toy Story 3" with 3D.After that then we just walk around,cause i just got no idea where we wanna walk or sit for a coffee.I ask him,py ask me.Funny though.So me & py just walk infront and meanwhile babe walk behind me for a quite sometime.I know he's mad at me cause didn't bother him.But the thing is I don't wanna let my relatives saw me hold hands or something.You know that some,I mean all of my relatives just damn nosy.One word,HATE!!!!Then suddenly i got an idea that wanna go to Kahve for a drink.So we just take a seat,n babe wanna go to carpark and put back his jacket to his car.It's been a long time that babe haven't come to kahve,so I just phone him see that anything got happens to him.No longer,he's heading and sit beside me.Another moment later,he just told py that wanna borrow me fora while to chit chat,so I just follow babe.Then i just keep on console him.Sighhhhhhhhhhh,I just felt guilty for him.I don't know how to appreciate him when he's here with me.I'm such a idiotic!!!After a mean time of consoling babe,he just relief!!Happy that he become happy.Don't know is it finally I can tum him or what.Hehe.But the thing is,I dislike that babe touching py's hair or play.When I'm walking alone at the front,and you both walking behind me.I also realize that.And i saw py just like laughing all the way.I know is sounds normal,but for me,I just not so like.I know i can easily get jealous of it,that's my weaknesess.I admit it.I know is kei mui or kei gor,but that's ain't real at all,and not officially siblings.Lou gong,I hope you understand okey.I'm not scolding you or what,I just wanna tell you my feelings and express it.At the end of it,You still my beloved babe!! I love you,loveable pie.Ai shiteru.*Muackxxx ***No Hard Feelings***

A day outing with my dearest wife...

At last, after 1 month plus only can watch movie with my wife again... and a 3rd party, py... we watched toystory3 (in 3d) and knight and day... i fumbled watching ts3 cx i have to wear two freaking specs just to watch it... huhu.... and the same thing happen again, she abandon me and not caring bout me like before.. haizzzzzzzz... but the weird thing is, i felt that i start to get used to it... the only thing i cant stand is tat she just races off with the third party and chat nonstop and leave me behind... if she were to at least hold my hand and talk with the other person, it will not make me tat angry, cx it makes me feel tat she actuali still wan me by her side no matter who the other person is.. felt quite down tat time cx i felt tat i was the only one tat misses the other side like mad... but then, despite going thro all this, i dont seem to see the reason for me to just break up with her... cx to me, till now, she's the onli one tat can make me calm down after gettin agitated or sad... she onli can control and und how to make me bac to normal... and for me to get someone who can handle me so well, i'm totali hapi and glad tat i have a gf like her... muaxxxxxxxx... tats y no matter wat, i wont leave her, cx she's the onli one meant for me... and i'll do my best to control myself, and not to upset her anymore... I LOVE YOU, LOKE MANDEE...

One more day till celebration day

Hehe... at last... one day left.. but then tomorrow will be another hectic day... have to change IC and etc.. haizzzzzzz... but then, at least i will be able to meet her in the weekends, and the two lil babies... cant wait to meet my dearest lovely wife... have to hug her tight2... cx i'm so darn worried bout how she will be able to cope without me around her... and wanna say sori to her for not being there for her during the week... huhu... feel guilty.. huhu... never tot times past so fast... hehe... gonna meet her alr... cant wait.... but then, the onli thing i could say is tat i love her, no matter wat... I DO LOVE HER STRAIGHT FROM MY HEART... she is the one i need, as she is the onli one who has been able to handle me under any circumstances.... i love you, LOKE MANDEE... the onli one and onli loke mandee... and i reali mean it... i wont leave u... no matter wat.... =)

Without YOU just make my life miserable:(

It's been a few days,I mean is already a week that we didn't meet each other ler.That 1st few days I really can't adapt that YOU not around me,somemore emo and need to cried.Just make my life evn more miserable.Even classmates also ask me several times that why an I so down and so on.But they know my reason.Slowly starting from thesedays,I really slowly can adapt without You here.I know i can do it,Hehe.?**Smooching...I know thesedays when we chat just out of topic,don't know wanna chat what.Do YOU realize??LOL.But that's normal.Day by day,is already Thursday le,tomorrow I'm going back to Ipoh,so darn happy.Can meet my family and house pet.And of course,can drive and meet YOU.Haha..1st time meet your 2 little babies,Josie & Kobe.Our 2 little angel!!!Just wanna let YOU know that I'm still loving YOU that much,there's no reduce at all.I'm still ME.LOKE MANDEE!!!!!!!!!!!!Haha..:) And at last.I just wanna say that 'I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE'

Life without the other half

It's like the 3rd day in Ipoh, not having her by my side at times. 3 days in Ipoh, feels like its been ages already. I felt guilty though coming back, when i could actually accompany her in KL. Hearing her being alone in Pyramid, seeing couples walking around happily, it pains to know tat she's not in a very good state. I already miss her, miss touching and pinching her cheeks, cuddling up to her, the way we shared our food, taking matcha drinks, and of course her poking me and pinching my cheeks, and etc. But then, we need this time to be a challenge for us, to stand being away from each other for some time. This is so, if in case anything happens in the future, we're ready for it. But, the only thing i know for sure, my love for her will never die...